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I feel as if this is the only site that I can express my true feelings on. Where to start? I've been having extreme anxiety attacks recently and my depression has worsened. I'm pretty sure these two are related; however, I don't know in which order. I've had high stress levels as well. It's gotten so bad that my hair is falling out. 

I haven't really though of self-harm at all, so I guess that's a good thing. Since I don't really have friends at school no one has noticed my change. Either I keep up a good mask or no one seems to care. It could be a combination of both. 

Cons of myself: I'm fat, rather ugly, annoying, anxiety attacks, and I 'have no heart. Don't forget the fact that if someone touches me I cringe. I've been wondering if this is because I'm asexual or a physiological problem. 

Pros: I have cats. 

On a (semi) brighter side, there's this guy at school that I like. Obviously he doesn't like me. I can dream can't I? 

I wish someone at school could notice my depression. I wish someone cared enough to notice. I'm just that one fat girl that has to turn side-ways to fit between rows of desks. 

Night.~ 

-Ri