Without a Trace

To be honest, it's like my heart is crushed. I had all these high hopes for summer and they came crashing down. I know I dreamed too high.
My best friend was suppose to come out from MI tomorrow, but that isn't happening. I was going to go to the 2NE1 Concert in LA, but that isn't happening. My Disneyland trip was suppose to be fun, that didn't happen.

It feels like someone took a hammer and crushed my chest area. My whole summer is now down the drain and I have nothing to do. I was going to go and explore, swim in water parks, walk down Fremont St., take a tour of The Strip, ride roller-coasters. It's really just a big let down. One after another.

She's coming out for two weeks in August, but I know that actually won't happen either. I can't make any other plans for summer because I don't have that many friends. Actually, I don't have any friends that live where I live. It's actually really sad.

I'll just sit here and feel sorry for myself.
It may seem like nothing, but to me it means a lot.
I'm going to stop crying now and suck it all up.

I'm just going to go and watch You're Beautiful. Yea that will help- at least I hope it will.

~Ri.